attention

The last two days Rebecca has been a little bit less of a handful.  The reason, I think, is because she's gotten more attention.  Yesterday Rachel didn't have school, so they played together (some) and I also have been more intentional about playing with her and giving her my full attention.  So getting my positive attention=less trouble.  But here's the thing:  when I'm paying more attention to her, I can't do the things I need to do (dishes, laundry, cooking, cleaning, etc). 

So I go back and forth in my mind.  Of course she is more important than those things, so she should come first.  But those things still need to get done.  You'd think after 5+ years of being a mom, I'd have a balance down, but I'm far from it.

When she does the things that annoy me, I get frustrated that I'm interrupted from the things that need to get done.  When I pay attention to her, she does fewer things to annoy me, but then I'm frustrated that the things that need to get done aren't getting done.  Either way, I'm frustrated.  Maybe one of these days, I'll figure out this stay at home mom thing without so much frustration. 

Someday. 

But right now she's in bed, so I'd better go get some of those things done!